When It Became Warm
When it became warm I no longer thought of you
As the earth began to speak with the soles of my feet again
As my bones began to protrude more than they had in the prior months
As my skin browned quickly and finally began to soften and my hair lightened overnight
As water became sweeter and the sky became softer
As my sleep became restful
As my eyes unsunk from their resting place and my knees began to sing instead of weep
As I held no more tension in my belly or in my chest
As my breath absorbed the gorgeous, heavy humidity with my mouth as moist and delicious as the outside air
As my heart beat faster
As the world span as slow and fast as my childhood and adulthood collided
As I grew more in love and in lust of the energy that surrounded me
I no longer thought of you
When it became warm I no longer thought of you; when it became cold you no longer thought of me
Holding
step widely, new legs
breath vaguely, shallow lungs
a self soother, perpetually
giving, always; only to be stolen from
a somber memory, a necessary evil
holding another, a third
instantly yet languidly drained of a life once held, my own Divine Feminine eroded into the earth that itself once birthed me
to be shaped by a self made tragedy, human inadequacy; a disgusting flower is growth
shallow breaths transitioned to deep gusts of soothing oneness, I gave myself to the ether, willingly
gravity, she pulled me back, new legs, step widely
intermittently, my body relaxes, touching the structure of my hips, breasts and ribs; on occasion I become whole again
Growing Softly
since the void has finally begun to fill with a kind of self acknowledging cement
the soul and body is softly becoming at peace with her lone self
the levels of clarity that were once so sought after and craved for as if it were an oasis are leaking into daily life now
the she that was so lost a matter of months ago has begun to reincarnate
whilst still being lost in the winds of conflict and emotion, the soul is clearer than she has been since an age of disregarded innocence
Take as much as you can, as quickly as possible
of the earth we were created from, blessed
though like a neglectful and arrogant child, our collective whole nurses at the universal breast until it is empty, dry and useless
to never give back and to expect more, what repulsive creations our mother has exhausted herself for
nonetheless, we will rip apart our creator until she reciprocates the malice
what confused children we will be when that day comes
our mother wants her body back; unencumbered from the selfish spores we are; simply a self created plague
only time will tell until she surely rejects us
so with the remaining days you hold-
take as much as you can, as quickly as possible
Flash warning
Darling do you not hear it now
The screams of your peers and loved ones calling out for solace
The voices of today have become too much for our undeveloped cerebral, give it 4 more years
Dare as you wish to make a change when the suit above will thankfully agree, yet imprison your motives
If today was the day for change it may have been yesterday
Ignore the napalm, ignore your vices, ignore the flooding intake of inaccessible life shoved down your throat via screen
The pollutants of our various afflictions will never cease
Until the day that we can reach a transient state of being will this hell only continue to purge our mind bodies and souls